Dear friend,
Yesterday he cried. It was a cry that I hadn't heard for a while, the cry of someone totally lost in their frustration...
It happened just before bedtime...
It is only when he gets into bed and his body is still that his brain can process what has happened during the day. For him that can be problematic...
The overwhelming pressure, caused by a build up of emotions, triggers an electrical storm in his brain.
Everything tumbles out at lightening speed all muddled up together...
School, home, new class, new teacher, new homework, new gym, new times, new rules... Have to do it myself and I can't remember what she said... I don't like it! Too much change.
I want to wrap my arms around him and give that deep hug that always calmed him as a toddler... But he isn't a toddler anymore... I can't kiss it better!
Watching him overwhelmed by his thoughts is heartbreaking and exhausting.
But then he says something that knocks me off my feet...
Change is hard for someone like me mum, someone who has autism...
Is it my turn to cry?
Yesterday he cried. It was a cry that I haven't heard for a while, the cry of someone totally lost in their frustration...
A glimpse into autism is my new series. Short letters that explore how autism effects us on a day to day basis. Disclaimer: this is our experience not all autistic people are the same.
