H Days: 7 months later...

6 September 2016

Dear friend,

I have been putting off writing this update... I meant to write a 5 and 6 month update and here we are at month 7. Why? What stopped me from writing this?

I was confused, scared, angry...

In my 4 month update I mentioned that I had seen my GP as I had been experiencing some pain particularly around my menstruation time. This has continued. And instead of accepting it and facing it head on, I am afraid I tried to bury my head in the sand and ignore what was happening...



Title: H days my j=hysterectomy journey


Stupid I know but previously I have touched on the weight of expectation I was feeling and that there appears to be a life expectancy placed on illness.

Are you still having problems?
How long ago was your surgery?

Or worse still, people don't ask and just assume you are back to normal.

I am also my own worse enemy and have lifted heavy boxes of books, moved tables and carpets and climbed ladders before I was completely ready. Just so I did not have to admit I was having problems still!

I have struggled with feelings of disappointment and depression at having gone through all of this and still having issues. Has it been worth it? What if there's something really wrong with me...

Internet research is dangerous and for a time I convinced myself that it was because of the endometriosis and there was nothing that could be done...

All without seeking a medical opinion... all because I was scared, or too busy, or unwilling to admit I wasn't better...

Things came to a head when I started to bleed and I told hubby... He made me go back to hospital.

It turns out that the enemetriosis has caused a cyst to grow in the ovary. I have been given medication to try and shrink it. The Dr is confident that this should work.

I have been taking the medication for about 3 weeks and I am starting to feel a lot better so fingers crossed it is working...

I wish I had swallowed my stupid pride and gone back sooner instead of waiting it out. 

But we can not look back in regret we must move on in hope...

I hope this is my solution... I hope at my check-up I can report that I am fighting fit. I hope I can finally put all this behind me. I hope my H days are well and truly over!



Read more about my hysterectomy journey...





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