One Moment in Time with Preemie Mummy

5 July 2017

Welcome to one moment in time, a guest posts series, where bloggers share the stories behind special or significant photographs. I am honoured to be joined this month by the inspirational Preemie Mummy. 

My son is 50 days old in this photograph. He was born 4 months premature weighing a tiny 1 pound and 9 ounces.

In those first 50 days he had endured 2 punctured lungs, sepsis, a central line procedure, a Chronic Lung Disease diagnosis, a lumbar puncture on his tiny spine, PDA diagnosis (Patent Ductus Arteriosus), Pulmonary Hypertension, COUNTLESS blood transfusions, 3 fractured ribs and contracted 2 different species of fungal infection.

However, this photo represents the first moment where I actually saw the light at the end of the tunnel.

Mere weeks before this was taken, we had spoken at length with all of his doctors about whether we wanted to transition to palliative care, or keep trying everything we could. For me, the decision was a difficult one. At the time I couldn’t foresee a happy ending and couldn’t let go of the idea that my beautiful little human was suffering. Thank goodness for my husband, otherwise the situation could have been an entirely different one, and this photograph may not have ever existed.

Matthew was weighed right before this was taken. He was 2 pounds and 9 ounces. One pound heavier than that of his birth weight. For me, it felt like we had come full circle in a sense.

When I took this photograph, my husband had put his hand inside the incubator and Matthew wrapped his tiny hand around his daddy’s finger. He lay like that for over half an hour.

Settled and secure.

I remember feeling the oddest sensation of inner peace.

As I said before, it was the first time I had felt our situation had any kind of a positive ending ahead. It is a day I will never forget, and I am so immensely proud that I have the photograph to remind me.

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